you're shattered.
you're hurt.

how could they.
how could you.

you thought you could do it.
you thought you meant something.
you thought it was all under control.

now you have nothing.

you feel betrayed.
yet somehow, you feel as though you betrayed yourself.

life's supposed to be easy, right?
beautiful.
special.
unique.
a gift.

but it's not.

life's a wreck.
it's filled with pain.
and misery.
and heartache.

and many times, we don't want to battle it.
we don't want to let go.
we don't want to recover.

why?

because it's hard.
because it's painful.
because it's a journey full of tears. of moments spent crying on the floor in your failure.
because it means letting go of your made up worlds.

because it's easier to stay locked up in your dungeon of misery, then shattering the walls of your cells.
it's easier to pretend you're okay, then to beg for help.
to accept help.
to admit you're wrong.

many times it's too painful to even life your head.
it feels as if the sun is shaming you.
as if the rays of light are making the wounds sting worse.
it burns.
it hurts.

but.
you. are. recovering.

even if it feels as though nothing is happening.

you. are. getting. better.

every time you take the smallest step towards a better you,
you are shutting the door in your demon's face.

and you will not be haunted by this forever.
you will heal.
because hope is truth.
because love exists.
because joy is not a lie.

don't trap yourself.
don't trap yourself in lies.

let yourself breathe.
let yourself live.

even if you are at your last resort.
even if you feel like there's nowhere else to run.
run to love.
run to freedom.
run to life.

and never give up on yourself.
never give up on trying.
you are worth it.
your future is worth it.

and you will make it.
because you're strong enough.
because you're strong enough.